ERINA.
Daddy God chose a date for me, 5thFebruary'1995. I go to school everyday, STC. I love playing this awesome game, Pool. I love my friends and hangouts out with them.♥

Leaving me? ♥

i'm a fourteen-year-old girl.
who feels lonely sometimes.
i dont asked to be understood because i dont even understand myself.
i ask to be accepted as i am.
i do not want to be told what my future holds.
i dont want to be told that i'm going nowhere.
sometimes my heart bleeds & i cry.
i'm told to be different & to be myself.
please dont try to understand me nor judge me too quickly.
my name doesn't matter,
my heart is open! <3


erina <3

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Labels: impossible

hmm...today's main thing was
tat i celebrated my mei's birthday and papa's day!haha so ya lazy to upload picture so wanna c go my facebook (:

Labels: im a happy gal

I just can't help it
No matter what you say
It sounds you're far from okay
I know you're hurting
So please just stop the lie
Just say, say you'll try

Try to stop hiding, and show me how you are
I see through all the faces you put on
I know you're wondering, just how you got to this
All you've lost, all you missed

But it will be fine, and you'll be smiling
And you'll be grateful, for what's still there
And you'll be hoping that you still have it here
The things you thought you lost
The things you thought were gone

I wish I'd seen it
A long time ago
At least, now I know
I need your promise
No point of asking why
Just say, say you'll try

Try to stop hiding, and show me how you are
I see through all the faces you put on
I know you're wondering, just how you got to this
All you've lost, all you missed

But it will be fine, and you'll be smiling
And you'll be grateful, for what's still there
And you'll be hoping that you still have it here
The things you thought you lost
Were gone

'Cause it will be fine, and you'll be smiling
And you'll be grateful, for what's still there
And you'll be hoping that you still have it here
The things you thought you lost
The things you thought were gone

The things you thought you lost
The things you thought were gone

Labels: someone pls help me

arh!its been so long since i blog!
haha kay how to start...
the sun was like shinning on my bed so hot even when the air con is on
so ya i woke up n close the curtain dan ya of cos go back n sleep
dan about 10 my lovely friend called so we met at jp around 12 yap.
dan we wet to drink drink
dan decided to play pool cos we both were so bored n i was so borthed by some stuff hiaz but feeling better now?
SOMEONE hor got jealous leh haha.kay larh sorry...
dan ya took mrt to 'hommie'.dan went for dinner happy happy.
noe there's something borthering me but if i say it out...our relationship will not be like this anymore so i rather keep it to myself.i hope u will understand.

Labels: im sad ):

dont leech but dont be an imaginary friend too.occasionally drop them a line,hang out with them,or give a little gift to show tat u care for them.make time for ur friends in good or bad times(:

so long nv post le...sian.
i post next week?dk
when i feel like it dan post
what's with my tag box why i cannot c...
zzz
dont feel like using the com le
baibai...

mood:sian...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JAS!LOVE U LOTS AND NOW U NOE IT TOO!HAHA<3MUACKS!

dan oh dan stephanie wann me go with her to nus to c this piano thiggi so hmm...after church went to eat opposite church dan went to vivo walk walk dan went to nus boring i can say but very cool the place.dan ya went home like for 15mins dan went to my ahyi house eat dan ya went home dan ya alot of things happened dan ya went to sleep.....hehe...


must love me kay?haha<3

this are what i did and went...


TO ME YOU ARE EVERYTHING


TO YOU IM NOTHING


ERINA LOVE YOU


ERINA LOVE ALVIN THE X BUDDY


ERINA LOVE MELODY


ERINA LOVE SHERYL



ERINA LOVE BESTIE


I PAINTED MY OWN SHOES!


I DID MY OWN DREAM HOUSE



I WENT TO NUS THERE AND SAW 'I WAS HERE'

haha i lazy type


HAHA so lame dk what to say...

<3erina

pictures speaks more dan words (:
love them all lots
still got more tomorrow dan upload i lazy.
i hope that our relationship/friendship will become more like a rainbow <:
hehe so colourful!

                                                    i nv thought it would end up like this.


hmm... ytd went to simlim...went to walk walk there dan galfriend go do her ipod skin siao one $40.i also can do lorh haha...dan went to airport with mel and galfriend we took mrt there!is like the first time we all took mrt to airport...dan we went to terminal 3 dan walk walk dan took the skytrain to terminal 1 dan nv go down dan back to 3 dan dk larh.but we had lots of fun thou.dan hmm...we take alot of photos.dan later meet bestie and crazy over guys.dan we go mac to eat eat hao le dan we go out of mac and sit at a side for the rest of the time there.okay larh not boring at all.i was like talking to mel about how i feel and all dan i almost cry dan she tell me about hers' also dan ask me to help her i tried but i dont think it really works but ya...dan later we went to the toilet so funny cos bestie wanted to go dan me and mel follow her dan when we went in this happened:










hehe so funny.we laughted like mad when we saw the cleaner.she still smiled at us larh.haha

ya dan we just sat there and chat dan play.crazy over guys was like dancin...dan galfriend also...ya lor dan ya.we had fun together thou.

i noe u two will read my blog 

i just wanna say im sorry i dont want to do this now.can u all pls at least for a week at least leave me alone.
all i wan now is just pei-ing all my galfriends and hv fun while i still can.and i hope to spend the happiest time with them and make the most of my life...
kay i dk what im rubbishing about but i just wanna u to noe tat im not ready yet and i need at least a month or so pls leave if u are not willing to wait.im sorry again.

Labels: i dk how to express myself

                                                               follow your heart.
                                               do what you want to do
                                                   and never give up.

today...woke up about 10plus or 11 plus like tat.dan eat dan rest as in like slack slack around....dan like bake with my jie and mei but woth my mei for awhile only...some pictures:
not very pretty lah but jie jie pretty lorh skinny and tall ):

nice rite!haha...


thanks kay!

It has been two months and two days not smsing you,how hv u been?i really miss you lots!and i love you!

Labels: lover is cryin coa the other wont stay, lovers in love the others run away

I drew a circle on the sand which represents both our world
which also separates us from the others
I don’t care how the others see us
I just know when u are beside me
All my troubles and worries will be left aside
I don’t really care about ur past if u are very worried about that
As long as we are in love,
We will be fine
Don’t ever give up because of small matters
Cause its fate that brought us together
We can leave all our troubles aside and not shed a tear.

Whatever you say I believe
You said it nice and sweetly
Every single word you said, I believe
Because of love, and wanting to change
I listened to you
I closed my eyes
Dreaming of it made it so beautiful
So I let it continue
Everything you said was pleasing to my ears
But whether you love me, I cant confirm
Maybe you treat this as a game to you
But im not that smart I put in effort to love
Everything you said was pleasing to my ears
But whether you love me anot I wont want an answer now.

<3 love is what we need and it is essential
That’s why we all love, love songs
No matter if we are in love or still very far away from love
No matter if you love him more or he loves you more
Love or to be love is actually both
Something you should be happy about.<3

but if i hv a choice, i would prefer to be love than to love (:

<3erina

Labels: love or to be love is a joy

trying to forget you
is not a easy thing to do
i love you and i miss you
hmm...today morning dam sian play wii play and play untill mel ask me go out dan we went out went to find job so funny can but so sad cannot find cos too young.hiaz...dan i dont dare ask dan mel mel ask.dan we wanted to find for flyer de job as in go give flyer de dan we call so many but dont hv space.hmm maybe is god's plan ba dont wann ua to work and just hv fun.haha.okay larh quite happy goin out with her better dan stayin at home lorh.dan she came my house play with me and my daddy haha.i go bath marh dan she play with daddy.

ya nothing much larh.haha sort of love today cos nv thing so much le.
thinking of you is so not fun at all.it always want to make me cry)':


gtg byez

<3erina

love is a painful thing.
im just too tired to give a dam about u.

why do i feel so helpless when i needed you and you are nit there?
why do i doubt about telling you things?
im not in love this is not my heart.
breaking up is nv easy easy,you and i noe,but we still put on a smile and carry on.
i love you and i miss you.
im just trying to make myself happy bit no matter how hard i try i just cant do it.
these happiness will not last.
i told everyone tat its over cos im so must better without you.(not really)(sob sob)



today in the morning dam sian stay at home play by myself...played wii dan horplay and play all by myself wuliao rite!? haiz...dan went online chat chat dan go back play again...aiya nothing much today larh.boring is the only word i can express myself ):
but hor think about it goin to sch is so much more fun lorh.
aiya as usual think alot lor.
my studies
my friends
my relationship(with everyone not only you)
dan alot larh.

now tryin to find a part time job lor dont think i can lorh but still ya.anyone wanna find with me?haha
dan hope i fine one dan will not so sian and start thinkin all my rubbish ):
ya got to zhao liao
byez

<3erina

thank you!thank you my friend (:
thanks for ytd kay.
haiz...i made up my mind not to continue R.gym le dan i also dont wanna join ballet le(sorry kim)ya dan now the only thing to do is study lorh because if studies continue to be so bad hor dan dk where can i go le lorh.
someone asked me what i want to be when i grow up,actually alot of people ask me but i really dk.whats my goal?what i really want in my life and how it should be...
haiz so troubled now dk why also so many things to think about and i wann to settle it all before school reopen i hope if not haizs no hope le lorh.
trying my best to change le hor!people stop it kay!believe it or not im studying okay!im trying to change myself so stop complaining kay dont say i this i tat...
haha kay larh tell me and i will try my best to change more.and hor i dont speak so loud an i dont act so cohlorh le hor as u said i was but i dont really remember bullying u lor...haha sorry larh.i feel so bad now when u tell me kay.haha so ps.ya tats about it i guess...

sorry lorh sob sob i think i need to say sorry for alot people ):

<3erina

Labels: still thinking stop putting false thoughts into me

oh ya people!guess what i have made up my mind to quit R.gym le.finding another cca i guess.i dont wish to continue dont ask me why i dont hv any reasons for it.kay maybe got lar n is cos i dont like it i dont wan go is nit that im lazy is just tat i hv no interest in it le.thought about it for very long le so ya made up my mind le.

still missing you lots!


<3erina

Labels: no one can force me to do what i dont want to

you were everything i thought u nv were
& nothing i hv thought u could hv been
but still u live inside of me
so tell me how is tat
you are the only one i wish i could forget
the only one i love to not forget
& though u break my heart
you are the only one
& though there are times when i hate u
cos i cant erase the times u hv hurt me
& put tears on my face

and even now while i hate u it pains me to say
i noe i'll be there at the end of the day
i dont wanna be without u babe
i dont wann a broken heart
dont wan to take a breath without u
i dont wan to play tat part
i noe tat i love you but let me just say
i dont wanna love you in no kind way,no no
i dont wanna a broken heart
& i dont wanna play the broken-hearted gal, no no
no broken-hearted gal
im no broken-hearted gal
there is something i feel i need to say
but up to now i'hv always been afraid
tat u will nv come around
& still i wanna put this out
you say u hv the most respect for me
but sometimes i feel tat u are not deserving of me
& still u are in my heart
but u are the only one
& yes there are times when i hate you
but i dont complain
cos i'hv been afraid tat u will walk away
oh but now i dont hate u am happy to say
tat i will be there at the end of the day
i dont wanna be without u
i dont wanna to hv a broken heart
now im at a place i nv thought i would be
im leaving in a world tat is all about u & me
ain't gonna be afraid
my broken heart is free
to spread my wings n fly away,away with u




<3erina to you and only you

Labels: i love to be with you forever n ever

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!happy birthday jiejie!
i love you! just now celebrated with jie at home hope you loves it!




birthday cake (:




took picture for jie!<3 her lots!


<: me & jie
haha so messy my hair.
jie jie so preety<3

ya bought a cake for her from fourleave haha nice lor the cake!
happy birthday jiejie i love u muacks!<3

<3erina

Labels: happy happy birthday

galfriend once told me this:maybe its true, maybe we dont know what we have until we've lost it. but maybe is also true that we dont know what we are missing till we find it.


it seems so true to me whenever i read it so many thinks just keep popping out of my head dan make me feel like crying ):it is so difficult to please everyone and myself!im so stressed up just thinkin of what to do next.sobs...


oh ya very very important!
happy birtday jie jie i love you lots and lots!
happy birthday to u
happy birthday to u
happy birthday to jie jie
happy birthday to u!

loves!


<3erina

Labels: should i or should i not

i hate this!
it wasnt mend to be a gossip!

To katy:sorry i noe i was the one who did not want u to come my house but its because i dont like it when u always tries to create attention.now im telling everyone i dont like it when u do tat.i dont wan to tell u is because i dont want to hurt u.im sorry.im not two facing u as u say.

To sheryl:im also sorry kay.i noe i said before tat i dont like u cos of ur attitude u get very angry very fast n i noe u are tryin to change with the help of god.im sorry for what i said same to u i didnt want to hurt u tats why i nv say infront of u.im sorry

To fiona:i dk why but everything is like breaking us up.maybe is fate.but ya i didnt noe you will do this but ya last yr i did talk bad about u.noe there was this time when whatever i drew u drew?i told them tat i dont like u because of that.im sorry.

now everything is so messed up i really dont noe what to do kay.i wanted to tell my mami that i wan to change schhol but i thought about u,fiona, n i didnt wan to change.now that everything is so messed up maybe i should.im not sure still thinkin.

why must all this happen!?
must we really continue like this!?
i dont want!
but i just dk how to face u all anymore if we continue to be like this!
i noe that i also hv this thing tat is in me tat all of u dont like also.pls tell me i promise to change.

im sorry.


<3erina

siao school can!today hor crazy school make us 'clean' the school make me even more tired but hor something good is tat my day is so packed and it makes me not think so much.laughs...

i feel so troubled!i dk what to do there are so many so many things to think about what will it stop!!!make me so stressed larh!

haha ytd so shiok nv go school cs dont feel like shouldnt go sch today also...regretted it sia!

aiya dk larh dont feel like sayin le later i cry arh!i just dont like these times now.just feel like sleepin n hv fun n the best time of my life n make it the most best!


<3erina

hmm... today went to school do what arh oh ya normal lor dan we went to singapore discovery center seibei boring make me wann sleep.dan went back to school.ya so not nice at all today.dont like it.

someone told me:
dun be an ass!happiness can be found in many things!juz tat u have to find out wad those things are!trust me,x xxxxxx xxx like u should always be happy!

hiaz this made me think about what i do before i do things.is like it makes me think before i do.so ya.it doesnt breaks me it only makes me stronger.

love is a painful thing.im just too tired to give a dam about it.he might be important to u but will he give a dam about u!?NO!why should u treat him so nice when he needs u but he is always not there for u(thanks for those words)

Labels: love is not love untill u give it away

who do you think u are!
why must we care about u when we are sad who are the ones who cheer us up our friends rite!?when we need someone to listen to us when we need,where were you!?
not here rite!friends are the only one who care for us the most!so why must we care for you when u need us n we must be there but when we need u u not there!
think about it!


haiz today hor in church supposed to help out in the kids church de dan i nv so sad feel so bad.ya dan end church went shop n shop ya feel so much better le(:
oh ya will not forget our date on next sunday!dont worry!
ya nothing much le...


<3 erina

missing you isnt fun at all!

you sucker!why must u be like that!
you once told me to face it and not run away from it but now u are running away from it what is this marh!?
i said that forgetting you is not the best option too!
if you are happy think again!

i am so confused!can someone come help me!thought about it so much last night cant help it but cry.i am so tired and i hv enough of it.i am not going to give a damn about it anymore u wan it u take it dont wan dan just give up on it.i leavin it!tats what you always wanted!

if you are happy think again!

Labels: im not in love this is not my heart im not going to waste these words

today another day of school ):
so damn sian today after assembly went to the audi dan we got this talk about dk what cos i was sleepin.too boring larz.dan after tat went to the hall to listen to the sec one talk dan also dk what lar dan...emm...oh ya recess!haha just drank a cup of milo dan ate what arh?>>>>>oh ya denise help me buy dk what lar ya dan i ate dan go back hall like for so long dk what police talk before tat dk what talk also forgot le lar dan go class today seibei long n sian.dan went to class spend time with my aiaiss dan end sch went home with yanwen and katy...my day was boring so far):
dan today thought alot so sad but hor no one to talk to ):
haiz...hope you will reply me soon kay me still waiting for tat day hor.u told me once not to give up de lor just because of tat time dan u scared!what is this mar!):


haha kay must tell myself not to be sad le! <:
oh ya me lovez:






haha i love eatin tats why hor see me lar so fat can):



me love u lots galfriend!must spend more time together kay<:
make me happy!


<3erina

): today arh damn damn tired!almost late for school cos my mami lor haha so slow.
dan today got all my results...sian can!
my results hor like shit lar!
english:49/100
maths:68/100
chinese:58/100
science:29/55(bio)28/45(physics)
d&t:62/100
lit:54/100
history:35/100
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!FIONA <3>
hope u had fun ytd kay!haha nv do much but ya hope its memorable to you!
i had fun!love the pictures we took.

hope we will stay so happy together<3
WE HAD LOTS AND LOTS OF FUN!(to thoese who didnt wann to come u suck!)
haha kidding...
ya dan very fun ytd lor play n play the whole day!
haha i had so much fun playin pool also!
im still lovein it!!!


about it...
<3erina

yeah!me back from Malaysia liao!
hmmm.....what did i did arh...i went to this organic farm okay lar very fun!i like the activities!is like we went for this river walk for like 2 hours so long but quite interesting!very fun when we reached the end cos th water got like difference in the coldness dan is like we walk further dan is like so cold n nice.haha sleeping with you was fun hehe.so fun dan we took tis small boat dan roll roll around so fun but hot.
haha so surprising!i saw my biao ge there with his friends also!
i dont like the room we sleep in cos got alot insects!eww!dan we keep killing ants before we sleep.GROSS!haha i slept on tis pink bed!hmm dan very fun lar see alot alot of stars!so sad nv see shooting stars some of them saw but so sad i in the room):
dan ya did alot of fun fun stuff.lazy to upload pictures.i think going to put in facebook faster haha.
this was the place i went to part of it only lar.


dan we raft also but i only did it in the baot cos i scared later fall in the pond or what ever its called hah.
oh ya my biao ge got no where to sleep dan he and some of his friends slept in the small island in the middle of the pond so cool soemore got no light dan they must roll roll the boat there haha so sad but it must be fun haha....
haha lazy to type le...
it fun!almost no regrets going there!

oh on Thursday i bake with my jie is like the best nv burn haha
haiz today arh...not say very nice haha nice only cos i bought alot of things katy lor make me walk so much zzz.go round and round.went with my jie she pay for all my things i bought kay!so nice love u jie jie!haha stop makin me jealous can u so skinny and tall dan me larh?!haha
i love jie jie lots!
oh ya sorry my beloved friend cos i scared of u dan nv talk to u haha ps ps.
and hor we went to all the gal gal shop.haiz but there hor nothing to buy de lor...make me so tired and sick wan faint le larz!
i took pictures with jie jie

ARH!!!! PIMPLE OUT BREAK! so sad ):
):exams sucks man!so diff can is like history!andi did not memories anything what who are they question i dont even noe!
sob sob i really dont wann to take history! i still dont noe whch combination to take lar combine sci need to take pure lit or history or goeg i all also dont wann ):
oh ya i went to rambutan road!haha i went there to eat durains!haha very nice the place there!dk where is that also is in between chiku and rambutan rd(:


i hv lots an lots of things to say to you!you are the only one who understands me the most! if you hear what i am going to say promise me not to cry? i miss you lots and when my memories turn back the pages i can remember the happy times we had together.i love you and i miss u lots!

its exam!but i am like not really studying at all):
dk why also just keep sleeping feel so tired.
today went to church dan after tat go home dan study for awhile dan sleep again dan wake up la my jie show me what she wan for those blog shops dan went for dinner. nothing much tomorrow lit exam):
dk how to study for it.
cant wait till exam over):



lazy type le
<3erina

): why? me so moody this few days keep having headache sob sob.
i feeling like sleeping and nv wake up but it sound so irresponsible
):
today went to school sleep during Chinese cos teacher nv come dan the other teacher let us do anything we wann so i listen to music n sleep lor cos very tired and tats the only way to not think so much haha.dan today arh before chinese is PE dan go tat we came out with the steps haha my group not the worse lar.
dan the rest of the day is boring give me more headache only.dan the weather so nice make me wann sleep.
dan DnT anyhow do cos last minute de.hope i will not fail hahaz
oh ya denises blow ballon for me! yay make me happy happy for awhile.haha thanks!




oh ya ytd not pon school kay is cos i sick!
):
dont keep saying i pon hor u people!
i very guai de okay.
i am SICK!NOT FEELING WELL!
not well in my emotions and fever.
believe or not is up to u lor.
haiz i damn sian):

oh ya the pictures of sheep we drew!
aiya not clear but ya another one